Never complain, never explain. I haven’t written nearly as much as I’d hoped to about my pregnancy, but I had a baby, so that’s my reason!
What feels like nine very short weeks ago, my lovely son Eamon was born by emergency caesarean, after a 19 hour induced labour. I’ve started to dip my toe into the world of YouTube, and so if you’d like to hear about his birth story, do head over to my channel and have a little look!
Little E is now 9 weeks old, and as I’m sure you’ll expect me to say, he’s totally delightful. While we’ve had a few challenges thrown our way in these first few weeks (hello sleep deprivation!) we’re getting on really well together. He’s got a delightful nature, just like his dad, and each day I am more and more surprised by how he changes, how he ‘wakes up’ into himself.
I’m exclusively breastfeeding him, which although is going well is really difficult, but not for the reasons I expected. I did lots of research before he was born about positions, and latching, and while those things did take time to fall into place, I think the greatest challenge has been that the feeding is falling entirely to me. I guess my logical brain knew this all along, but I didn’t realise at all what a physical and mental strain that would be. Having said that, I have made some rum decisions in my life, but marrying Mr Hello certainly wasn’t one of them – I couldn’t wish for a more supportive partner in these early weeks. He’s been so wonderful that I almost (almost!) feel sorry for him missing out on the milky 4am snuggles.
E is a big bonny baby boy and I love him! Lots of people have written about how having a baby exposed them to a range of emotions they’d never felt before; they’d never known love like it. Others have written about how becoming a parent shocked them to their core. Right now, neither of these ring true for me. I love E the way I imagined that I would, and being a parent feels more or less the way that I thought it would! Nothing yet has come as too much of a surprise, which in itself has surprised me! I don’t feel like that’s necessarily a popular view of new parenthood, but it’s mine nonetheless.
I’m in a really good place at the moment. It’s really bloody relentless and that makes it really difficult, but I have so much to be thankful for. I can’t wait to share the ride with you all!